Childhood has me by the balls.

Nostalgia. A thing we all experience, a thing we can all nod and say 'Ahh, good times.' to and look longingly into the distance.Today I have been positively bombarded by it. But experiencing nostalgia and trying to re-enact what you did as a child as I found out, is such a harrowing thing.

It all started with breakfast. I had frosties...have not had frosties since I was 8, jesus christ they are still good! Of course, then, as soon as I'd wolfed down that bowl I'd be running around like a lunatic outside and consequently burning it off, plus I was a growing boy and could eat and eat and eat without gaining a pound.

Of course, now, I have my waistline to consider...so after that delicious bowl of sugary, flaky goodness...I had to pound 2 hours on the running machine. You can piss off if I'm doing that again, wait another ten years for my next bowl of frosties I think...

So, on my triumphant return to the front room, I sit on my arse and switch on the TV. So, I start flicking through channels when I find 'My neighbor Totoro' is on some obscure kids station.

I had this movie on VHS when I was young, and when I was being a hyperactive little shit (probably from all the frosties) my Ma would plonk me infront of the TV, switch this on and it would always shut me up. I guess I just found this movie unbelievably charming even as a kid. Of course,watching it now I still see all the captivating charm, but now I understand whats actually going on in the story and the climax to it is pretty harsh for a kids film. If you haven't seen it, the two kids mother is in the hospital and not getting better fast. She takes a turn for the worse last night, and the youngest kid (May) tries to walk to the hospital without telling anyone...now, the hospital is pretty far away by anyones standard, and she gets lost. Then begins the desperate search for her, and at one point they find a shoe in the pond, implying that she has fallen in and drowned. The whole thing is pretty intense, but I guess when you are as young as I was, you wouldn't understand what was going on. You are just in it for the colourful characters and the music.

When you get older, everything just looses all it's mystery and magic, nothing is that exciting anymore.

Then I realize I can drink and smoke, so it's all good